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Dear Heart

I did a big thing. A new thing. I pushed my edges and spread my wings way past my comfort zone – I exhibited at the NZ ART SHOW – and it was so freaking fun to surround myself with artists and art collectors, and to just talk, share and sell art! I enjoyed myself sooo much! 

And in doing so I found a new world of resonance that has drawn me into a “How I do Life” REDO. Everything has changed this past couple of years, from where I live to how I live, what I do, what I will no longer do, what I love and how I work with clients. It’s all changed.I wonder if it’s been that kind of passage of time for you too recently?? I’d love to hear if it has. It seems these times are calling us to actually live the life we came here to; no more eggshells, no more excuses, just pure source-led action. And that’s what I’m here for. 

Hit me up for mentorship (by replying to this email) if you’re ready to TRULY live the life you came here to and would like some guidance back into your own personal instructions (click for more deets on that here), or read on if you want to hear more about how living the creative life has changed my world this past couple of years, and how it can change yours too……

For the past three years I’ve been pouring myself into abstract art…. or perhaps more accurately, I’ve been putting a paintbrush in my hand, opening myself to the abstract, and letting it flow through me.

AND

something happened that totally surprised me… I can paint!! AND people want to buy my art! It’s so freaking fun to be in the creative flow. Even my clients are getting to experience more creativity in their own lives, simply because of how I share insights through the creative lens.

Turns out that creativity, when you be in its flow – which naturally and effortlessly happens when you are aligned from that deepest place – spills out to affect your entire life and everyone around you in positive and fruitful ways – albeit often deeply uncomfortable ways too. But change never came through comfort now did it?! 

Back in high school I was told I wasn’t disciplined enough, or couldn’t follow instruction, or didn’t have the attention space required to lay the foundations, or, one of my favs, that I wanted to break the rules before I learned why they were there (they sure weren’t my rules lol). 

But what I can see now was really happening was that the source of my being simply didn’t have any inclination, nor will, to being creative in any other way – bar my own sovereign way. I was to create void of art school rules. I was to live MY life, MY way. And you are too.

Creativity wasn’t something that wanted to come through as per some source or plan or list of personal instructions, other than the source of my own Being. 

Creativity didn’t have an external program, planted by some other agenda, to run through me. It had it’s own One Step Plan and the first step was to reach down into that deepest place within, to listen inside to that ever so vocal silence, that you can only hear when you spend some time being with yourself, getting still and quiet enough to hear past the noise of everything banging around amongst your senses, and to then paint/live from THAT deepest place. 

Art has taught me that when action comes from the deepest YOUness that you are… you unfurl… frond by frond… just like Nature… it’s a straightforward unfurling. 

From that depth… you can paint, write, build, create, whatever your thing is. 

You can live without fear, because from this depth, you live from the pure love that you are. Nothing is happening TO you, everything is happening FOR you and your greatest expression of self.

It is through the love that you are that you dream life into existence – step by step, by and AS Nature itself. 

There’s no plotting, planning or visioning required. 

No five step manifesting plan, no efforting at all. 

Just
pure source energy
unfurling
the Nature
of YOU.

It is from this pure love source of your being that you dream your deepest self into reality… growing, unfurling, step by step, frond by frond, as Nature.

The last few years have recalibrated, realigned and restructured us all in different ways; shifting timelines, pausing progression in one realm of reality and activating immersion in others, reorganizing the inner circle of whole communities, whole constellations of relations. 

No one
has come through the past half decade
unchanged. 

Through drawing back into my own deepest re-do, undoing and releasing the traumas of the past, repatterning how I live in the unknown and giving myself the time and space for my own One Step Plan to unfurl, I found myself immersed in the world of abstract art and deep inner listening. 

As my trust in the people and organizations around me dwindled, what became even more blatantly clear to me, is that within us is literally everything we need to unfurl as we came here to. That who we are here to be is what we have been all along. That just as we grew, without any external guidance whatsoever, from an embryo to a fully functioning human, all within the darkness of our mothers womb, where no one shone a light and told us how or when to grow fingers and thumbs, hearts and lungs, or muscles and bones, we just did that through unfurling the light of our natural self as Nature, frond by frond until we emerged into the light of every day reality. 

And now, through the light of the fire within, we continue to grow through these dark days of adulthood into the fully fledged, evolutionary human that is continually emerging through the technology of our biological infrastructure and every single daily event happening – also without needing ANY direction or guidance externally whatsoever.

We are NATURE
and Nature knows how to grow.
No outsourcing required.

Yet somehow, 
altho we do have complete sovereignty,
we’ve come to believe
that we need guidance,
expert advice,
educating by other outfits
and institutions
somehow deemed smarter than,
or more ‘qualified’
than us. 

How did we let this happen? Mass hypnosis it seems. For we can actually wipe our own arses, rule over our own body’s, decide when to walk, run, stand and pause, make decisions and most importantly, CHOOSE, what it is we support through how we spend our money, share our time, donate our energy… by how we create our entire life. 

All we have to do
is stop running the programs
that have us pouring water on the fire
that fuels the source of our being
– which is what we are doing
when we outsource our every decision. 

It’s time to seriously CHOOSE how we want to live our life and what kind of life we want to leave for our children, and their children.

We raise our hand every single day to what we support in what and who we say YES to. 

Whether you paint, write, sing, grow babies or businesses, guardian communities or schools, you are a creative being that can create whatever you CHOOSE to create. 

Abstract art has taught me that all the layers that have come before this moment simply lay the land from and for which I now create whats next. The answer is always in exactly what you are doing right now. The deepest question to ask is: From WHERE am I choosing? The old adage – am I choosing from love or fear? – has never been a more important question to ask ourselves.

In my mentoring sessions I teach people how to walk the path that nature has laid in the footsteps they are placing in every step they take through daily life…. Just as I have through my own transition into the world of abstract art.

By turning you back into your deepest self, where you unfurl your own instructions, I share how to love and live life, healthier, happier and radically free as your own pure self in all that you say, do and be — purely by being confident enough to be and do YOU.

It’s time to live who you actually are…. boldly, creatively, purely and radically, fiercely YOU.

If you are ready to dive deep into the pure source of your deepest creative being, I’m ready to hold your hand and cheerlead you there – and I’d love to hear from you.

If you’ve read this far feel free to reach out for a free fifteen minute chat where we can assess our vibe with each other. 

Until next time
much love
Carmel

If you want 2023 to go differently than 2022 then…..

You gotta get out of your comfort zone! Can you feel a different energy pushing you around this year? It’s got to do with your comfort zone. The frequency of now wants you aligned with your own source connection. Staying where you’re comfortable, or pushing against whats pushing you out, is only creating more and more push… Which creates discomfort, pain and suffering. When you’re feeling the feels that come up through this wild and furious purification that we are each in (whether it’s through anxiety, sadness, fear, anger, hurt, pain, grief, etc, etc, etc) and you work against it, trying to stay in the zone you’re  familiar and comfortable with, you’re only going to keep getting the same experience you’ve been having.  But… … when you allow a strong (or even subtle) pull, that lights you up from the inside out, to gravitate you in it’s direction…. and you allow yourself to take the leap — no matter how uncomfortable, risky or scary that leap may seem to the part of you that is feeling the feels telling you not to — the frequency you are leaping into will catch you and carry you through…  BECAUSE … you leapt from that pulsation of creation that imbibes the essence of who you are from your very own Source Connection.  So…  …………… I started painting. And I’m loving it. This is a zoom in of a three board piece I’ve completed – it’s called Personal Combustion…. because that’s what it feels like I’ve been through this past couple of years.

All that I was has combusted into all that I was always meant to be… I got off track for a while there, but I was never really on the track I wanted to be on. I got stuck on the self help path where I needed the people around me to have problems so I could fix them. But I don’t need that anymore… and the problems we have don’t need fixing the way they used to. These lighter frequencies we live in work differently than the more dense frequencies we used to live in. Instead of having to process and cathartically release like we used to, now we can hold still, be with, feel, witness, be…. and what we are present with that is not ours will undo it’s tangle with us and transmute…. all while you simply hold still, be with, feel, witness, be…. and then what’s left is what belongs… and from there… you will automatically and naturally, from your own source connection, generate new frequencies void of the family patterns and behaviors that used to be so intrinsic to all that you thought you were. But you weren’t you… you were a programmed bunch of patterns that lived through the image of you. And the frequencies of today simply cannot and will not carry those programs any longer… that’s why you find yourself able to say no to what doesn’t work for you, and yes to what does. You can do this all by yourself… but you might also find the space I offer will speed things up for you a little more because I can help you quickly isolate those patterns that are purifying off and I can hold still with you in that purification process. That’s where things can shift very quickly. The energy of this time works fast – when you’re aligned from your source connection and not an old program that runs the image of you on that same old “wash, rinse, repeat” cycle. So…. if you want to work in this new way with me I’m taking new clients now. I don’t expect you to need a whole bunch of sessions, just one or two might be good…. or you might choose to get a new business off the ground or really follow through with a new direction… that’s where our work together can be incredibly potent and nourishing. But you’ll know when you’re ready to go it alone because it’ll start happening for you once you get how easy it can be to shed the old programs through your own personal combustion.

Use 2023 to do what you’ve always wanted to do

To the new paths we tread this year…

If you want to set up an appointment with me from anywhere in the world, you can contact me here. The space I can hold with you is a potent purification that will assist you in taking the leap you’ve always wanted to take. Together we will set you up for a whole new chapter living and being from the YOU you were born to be.  If you say yes to any of these questions I can help clarify your path and get you on it: Not sure where you want 2023 to take you? You’d like to gain clarity, receive guidance and push your own edges out into new horizons? Maybe take your business to the next level and create a new income bracket for yourself? Or perhaps you’re wanting to change directions and would like a cheerleader to hold your hand, someone who will talk you back off the ledge when you feel like your ideas are too bold? (2023 calls for “bold” by the way). Are you looking for that someone who who will remind you how freaking powerful you really are and who will help you dissolve the programs that you keep ruining but which no longer serve you? If you’re ready to change things up, expand, grow, attract abundance and commit to YOU, I can help. And I’m taking new clients now. We were born for these times… these are the frequencies we have been waiting for.  This is our year to do things differently.  Let’s do this thing! I am. And I’m here for you doing yours too.  so much love Carmel

Follow my art path here

⁣ Down under here in New Zealand I’m noticing the buds on the trees, the later sunset times, the lighter feel in the air…. But while the rain still falls and the clouds are still dark during the day, we can still feel the hibernation energies calling us inward inviting us into our deeper nature… to un-pattern and release those obsolete ways of being before we step out of our caves into a fabulous hot and playful summer. ⁣ ⁣And of course the opposite is happening for my Northern Hemisphere brothers and sisters. Can you feel yourself yet slowing down, feeling the call to draw inward? Perhaps not quite??! 😉

But here the deeper, darker energies of winter prevail, where altho we see the signs of spring emerging, we still have much wet ‘n wild to come, and the mind perhaps plays the games that taunt us into feeling like we’re getting nowhere…. But we are. ⁣ ⁣Perhaps for those in the Northern Hemisphere the idea of facing the darker realms of the inner winter is begining to create some trepidation?

Well if something is “up”, and let’s face it, regardless of what season we are in, much is up…. but’ it’s up because it is leaving. So let it leave. ⁣ ⁣It doesn’t mean you are broken, or you need fixing. You might need some reassurance of that being the case, so let me assure you, you are not broken. You never actually have been. You’ve likely been running a belief that you are or that something is wrong with you, especially if you’ve been on the path of self inquiry for a while, but truly, you are not broken, and you do not need any fixing.

If it’s “up” tho we tend to make up stories about why what is up is up… about that thing that happened when we were 5 or that family dynamic that keeps repeating. But if you’re feeling like you’re in a story like that…. you’re not as in it as you think. ⁣ ⁣You are purifying…. burning off… the shit that doesn’t actually want, or need, to keep recycling. You are in a phase of purification and it is un-patterning you—be careful not to make more stories up to fill in the empty feeling you may be beginning to feel because you no longer have the feeling that something is wrong or broken about you. Instead you are simply emptying yourself out of all that was keeping you from tuning into the song of your inner purity. There’s a specific tune you sing from the inside out that aligns you with the purity of who you are. When you can hear that song, that only you can hear and know, you imbibe the frequencies of a life path in it’s natural and pure flow.

I have spent years helping people reprogram their subconscious minds…. but what I’m now realizing is that there is nothing to reprogram, not by me anyway. Your own Connection to Source is what will do that for you. You don’t need any one else to help you with that. All you might need is someone to assist you in embodying your Source Connection who can show you the ways in which you can get out of the way of you not being connected to your Source!

So in sessions with me… an hour of life coaching with the Tarot or an hour and a half of Conscious Conversation we will:⁣ ⁣

🌕 depattern⁣ your old cycles
🌕 deprogram⁣ your false beliefs
🌕 learn to know and trust the tune of your unique song⁣
🌕 learn to honor your physical body as a tuning fork for aligned action⁣
🌕 reclaim your Sovereignty⁣ – plug you back into your Source energy Connection⁣
🌕 tap you into the purity of love and the flow of your inner healing ability ⁣ ⁣

Once the tune of your inner song is harmonious with the path you tread, you learn to trust each step you take—even when you don’t yet know where each step is leading. But because you’re in tune with your own song you trust each step you’re making as you’re taking it — and you give up needing to know where you’re going and simply enjoy the experience as you go. ⁣

⁣ Through our sessions together you will exchange
anxiety for excitement,
fear for curiosity,
trepidation for play
and scarcity for abundance. ⁣ ⁣

I can support you in embodying your emerging new energies and imbibe your greatest power — the purity of LOVE. ⁣ ⁣ Here is where the song of your inner wisdom sings the reality you came here to live into play one pure note at a time. Here is where the magic of YOU weaves everything you came here to experience into existence effortlessly and playfully.

I’m here to support you into that flow, then leave you to it. You truly don’t need me after you imbibe the POWER of your PURITY and live from your deepest place.

I’m taking five new clients now. Then I’ll close the gates again for a while. So if you are looking for someone to chew things over with, muse about your latest symptoms, experiences, patterns that are spinning off and through you as they leave through your body upgrading your biology on the way out…. then that’s what I’m here for. The perspective you get from musing through conscious conversation will help more quickly shed the denser frequencies and land in the purity of love that is driving everything anyway.

Contact me to apply.

So much love to you

in heart

Carmel
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