I don’t know about you but the ambient level of stress this decade comes with makes the last decade feel like a cake-walk. All the places we used to turn to for guidance just don’t cut it anymore, so the muscle we flex in trusting how reliable our own internal guidance system is is really getting worked right now. Where before we would turn to teachers, therapists, healers, shamans, scriptures, practices, Google, now all we can truly rely on is how our own body feels in any given moment, and then seek to decipher that.
It’s not necessarily about waiting, nor is it about trying to push things, nor is it about making what’s happening ok. We’re done waiting. There’s nothing of any substance to push through. Finding ok-ness in what is not ok seems to be all that’s left. Or is it?
Because…. what I’ve noticed in myself as I navigate separation and setting up life anew back in New Zealand, is that altho things are uncertain, complicated, painful, raw and far too new to comprehend, my body is calmer. It’s not necessarily clearer, yet. But overall there’s a calmness here that wasn’t here before. So if ‘body’ is calmer, then Nature is a little calmer too, because we’re children of Nature and Nature is our Medicine — so our Medicine dear ones is to RELAX.
Have you noticed what happens when you relax? Like truly relax for longer than a moment? Like turn yourself off mentally, physically, emotionally, and just literally put everything down and let yourself unwind from the inside out? Have you noticed what happens? I’ve noticed a lot lately about that. I’ve been painting canvases — my first one was quite big and each stroke of the brush was guided from the inside out. I was told by my own Source energy how to paint. And I listened. When my ego started to claim what was emerging onto the canvas as coming from ‘me’ I had stopped listening and was instead trying to translate a vision from my head into visual media, it just didn’t go well. But when I relaxed, listened and literally responded to the instructions emerging through each now-moment I shared with the canvas, something quite unexpected, and definitely unplanned, materialized. And it’s actually quite a powerful and surprising piece of work — especially seeing as I started off with the idea of painting Abstract, instead I ended up with a portal that called itself “iNiTiATiON”.
So me being me I started noticing where else in life I was seeking to translate visions from the outside-in, instead of unfurl instructions from the inside-out. What was intention setting and manifesting really all about?
Well, what I learned, is that it doesn’t work that way. Intention setting… potential spoiler/shocker coming up…. visioning, all the “manifesting” techniques I’ve been practicing and even teaching over the years, are actually bullshit. They’re an outside-in way of creating that is aligned to an energy source that is not your own Source energy. And when you don’t create from your own Source energy you’re responding to programs implanted through your conditioning that inevitably lead to a level of disappointment and failure that can only be truly felt by the unfinished work of what was actually trying to happen. This unfinished business is what you carry around inside yourself and call dissatisfaction, unfulfillment, disillusionment, incompletion, etc — it’s the feeling of everything you haven’t done that wanted to be done by your own Source energy.
But if we just relaxed, which automatically plugs us back into the purity of our own Source energy, what flows is pure genius from the core of our deepest most Sovereign self. This is from where art flows… this is from where all of LIFE flows…. this is from where our own inner healing ability turns back on and the force of life expresses itself through and as YOU aligned with, in and as the purity of LOVE embodied as YOU, healthy, wealthy and FREE.
If I’ve learned one thing in twenty plus years of working in the exhausting realm of the ‘self-help’ industry, it’s that we are all artists wading through the programs that have kept us bound by and blocked in self-doubt, as we find our way back to who really are. AND who we really are is a SOVEREIGN BEING who for now is known by the physical body we present ourselves in. This too, like everything, can and will change!
All that can and should be taught at this time is how to dream your life into effect from the inside-out, one now-moment at a time — it’s called reclaiming your SOVEREIGNTY.
This is my official notification to you that I have nothing for you but this. I can no longer call myself a teacher, spiritual, yogic or otherwise. Nor can I call myself a therapist. I am happy to be referred to as a woman, a mother, a human, a child of Nature, who feels calm in the uncertainty of this moment. From here, when I relax into my Source energy, I know the next step to take. Don’t ask me about tomorrow, or what the next canvas is going to look like. I have a rough idea of the color palette, but this too is not set in stone. All I know is that there are no enemies where we are going because all that is not like LOVE is imploding from the inside out—there is no ground for it to stand on where we’re going.
So, if you would like to sit together in conversation as we tug away at the threads still holding your programs together then say so here. I’m sharing time with people virtually over Skype or Zoom or, if you’re in the corner of NZ that I’m currently residing in, then you’re welcome to hold sessions in-person during a ‘walk ‘n talk’ or simply over a cuppa tea. The only thing I can reflect to you is how powerful you really are — when you reclaim your Sovereignty. This is what I can teach.
Until next time I am here for you.
in heart with love
Carmel
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SOVEREIGNTY — THE ENERGY SOURCE OF PURE LOVE
The only thing
that can
and should be taught
is SovereigntyYou don’t need help
You’re not stuck
There’s nothing to fix
And you certainly
don’t
need
healingThe negative banter
in your mind
is a program
it’s
not
YOU You are the light
of love
who’s purity
burns off
all that cannot exist
in the frequencies
we are now living inWhen you relax
into the rhythm
of your own pulse
the denser frequencies
of negative naysaying
simply slip away
and in their place
resides
the purity
of
YOUDensity
and all that weighs
you down
cannot survive
in the purity
of love
because love
burns off
ALL
that is not like itThere are no enemies
to fear
or recoil from
in the purity of love
because anything
that is an enemy
to love
is imploding
from the inside out
or running its machine
off the cliff
it’s built itself All that’s real
is the purity of love
and your own
Source energyConnected
from the inside out
to your own Source energy
you have everything
you need
because here
you
are
Sovereign
When I read your cards
I won’t tell you anything
you don’t already know
about yourself
but
you doubt it
hide it away
where no one can see it
or tell yourself
it’s not good enough
wise enough
right enough
worthy enough
to bring into the light of day
because those
not-enough programs
are so fucking rife
in us all
that we think it’s normal
to be so unsure
so we tarnish our luster
and turn our frequency down
till it’s so heavy
we’ll never soar
and instead
we seek outside ourselves
for answers
that only lay
withinSo what I will do
is help you discern
the truth of your purity
so that you know
what’s you
what’s someone else
and what’s planetaryMy only goal
Carmel ~ August 1st 2022
is to do myself
out of a job
because
you don’t need anything
outside of yourself
once you’ve plugged
your
self
back into
the Sovereignty
of your own
Source energy
